I woke up one morning feeling very restless for no reason. Suddenly, I was angry at the world for where I was and what would have been if I had made the right choices. I blamed so many people for my predicament.
All of a sudden, my life was meaningless and directionless. I didn’t know where I was going and what I wanted to do with my life. I was floating in a darkness that seemed endless and I was engulfed by a deep sadness.
I started putting up walls around myself so that no one would enter my world; all I wanted was to be alone, lost in darkness. I had no energy or interest to do anything.
My days became blurry and hazy. I cared about nothing although I wanted to care but I didn’t know how to; the ability to care had somehow slipped from my memory.
Sometimes, I woke up feeling helpless and unwilling to do anything; I saw utter hopelessness all around me. When I fell sick, I knew it really had nothing to do with my physical health but I was psychologically unstable.
I couldn’t sleep at night; I will just lay still gazing into an empty space.When my boyfriend visited, I felt a lot better and I saw a reason to live although it didn’t last long; the day he left, my world shattered.
I suddenly felt empty once again and I went back into the endless darkness I was used to. I even forgot to eat on some days or maybe I didn’t have the appetite to eat anything. My phone too became useless to me.
The few times I managed to eat, I dumped the dirty dishes in a corner until greenish mould gathered on top of them.
Often, in the middle of eating, reading or watching a movie, I would feel a crushing urge to cry and tears would stream down my cheeks with choking sobs that threatened to give me a cardiac arrest.
I even stopped going to class or even church; it was meaningless.
I realized I was depressed and I needed to come out of it before I started nurturing thoughts of harming myself. It took me a long time before I could genuinely smile again.
I want to share the few steps I took to get out of depression; it may help someone out there who is going through a similar condition.
HOW TO COME OUT OF DEPRESSION:
1. Talk to someone:
Just to make sure you’re not being irrational, talk to someone who is close to you; it could be your boyfriend/best friend or a sibling. Tell the person exactly how you feel and what you think is the cause of your depression.
Pour out your soul to him or her and listen to what he or she has to say. Filter whatever advice you get, pick out what speaks to you or your situation and remind yourself constantly of it.
If you talk to someone but you still empty inside, talk to God. He is always ready to listen to us and help us overcome challenges.
2. Change your environment:
This is the first step to getting yourself again. Move out of your current residence; find somewhere new to go to. Pack a few belongings but leave everything else behind.
3. Listen to your heart:
No matter the advice you receive from someone, you’re the only one who really knows YOU. Do not beat yourself if you still feel a little undecided after relocating; you will need some time to get used to your new environment. Spend your days doing nothing.
Just lay still and listen to your heart. Ask yourself what you want and what adds meaning to your life. Search your soul for that thing that you’re passionate about; find out what motivates you and start planning towards to it.
4. Fill your life with meaningful things and people:
Begin to gradually fill your life with the people who matter the most to you. Let them in slowly; don’t rush things. You can invite them back into your life through calls, chats, texts or visits.
Read motivational or inspirational books that will speak positive words into your life. Let the Bible become your companion day and night; fill your heart with the word of God.
5. Get rid of any negative energy around you:
Whatever or whoever makes you feel bad about yourself, get rid of it. You don’t need any negative vibe around you now. Throw away books or movies that make you feel awful and invest in positive ones. Don’t even listen to negative people who will try to discourage you, just follow your heart.
6. Start doing what you love:
If you’ve been listening to your heart, I’m sure you will find answers and a direction to follow. Find out what you love and start doing it; turn your passion into a hobby or a job even if it produces little or no income.
If you love sewing, baking or teaching, don’t be ashamed to chase the dream; it’s your life after all. Just do whatever makes you happy. Start a foundation for your passion, pour your heart into it and watch it grow.
7. Be committed to something useful:
It isn’t just about working or making money; be committed to something worthwhile. First, be committed to your hobby or job and next, find something else to engage in.
8. Create time for yourself:
Now that your life is back on track, you may find yourself so busy that you won’t even have time for yourself. You could be immersed in a lot of things that you forget who you are and what having fun means to you.
These were the steps that really helped me get out of depression. My close friends and family members also supported me a great deal; they were understanding and patient.
There were days when I shut them out without a word but still they patiently waited for me to come out of hiding. If you ever find yourself falling into that pit called “depression” or “hopelessness”, get help.
Have you ever been depressed? How did you come out of it?